"Be a Simple Kind of Man, Be Something You Love and Understand"

-Lynyrd Skynyrd of coarse.  "Simple Man."  This is a song that means alot to me, and has since I first heard it when I was a freshman at Defiance College.  A friend of mine played it in the car while we were on our way to get a pint of Ben and Jerry's ice cream to eat while we watched Tom and Jerry.  We did this everyday.  I suppose the song hit so close to home because at the time I felt like it applied to me.  I felt when I was in the car with my friend, just driving, that  my life was simple and I loved it.  I loved who I was at the time; totally myself.  No walls holding me back, no drama tying me down.  I look back on it now and chuckle because this friend that I was with probably had no idea how much the little time I spent with him meant to me, and why.  I still think of him now and then, it's been at least five years since I've seen him.  I talk to him online, and he still has my number and he'll text me now and then, but he'll never know how much he impacted my life. 

Thinking about it now, I realize that this is what I have to get back to, whether my friend is there or not.  Lynyrd says, "now don't you worry, you'll find yourself.  Follow your heart, and nothing else."  That is how I used to be, and what I believed in; following my heart.  But for the past few years my heart has been so blinded by manipulation that I couldn't find the light to follow it.  So here I go again, starting over.